Wednesday, April 30, 2008
See What Stress Can Do.
Similar to the major-general's lover the school teacher is trapped. He is trapped in his hard life, in poverty and trying to feed and shelter all of the people in his house that he is responsible for. Before I got to the end I felt an extreme sense of sympathy for this character. He used to love teaching, but now because of the conditions around him he is too exhausted to teach and the kids don't want to learn anyways. He doesn't seem to have any friends because times are too hard to buy beer and there isn't much time anyways for himself. It was ridiculous that the major-general's lover would be so observed with herself that after all this struggle she wanted the teacher to look at her. At the end of the novel, while killing your wife is obviously not excusable, his life seemed to close in around him. In the same, yet very different ways he is trapped in a never ending situation, just like the major-general's lover.
I especially enjoyed the title of this short story, "stress". I was expecting something very different from the original title. I am sure at this time of year when someone hears the word stress the immediately think of all the exams and papers they have to do in a very short amount of time. And to a much lesser extent feel the same way as the school teacher, every day the stress of just getting though it all becomes greater and greater. Not that anyone of us is planning on strangling someone because of it.
"The Girl Who Can" - Ama Ata Aidoo
Reader Response to Vera
After having read a little about the Yoruba tradition and the importance of children, I am curious if similar traditions exist in Ghana. Certainly the author privileges the position of the child but the grandmother disregards the child’s wisdom either with the admonition to never say such a thing again or with uncontrollable laughter. Neither reaction attaches any importance to what exactly Adjoa says. While I cannot personally related to Adjoa or her mother I do see a similar dynamic within my own extended family. My grandmother possesses rather decided opinions on many topics but her grown children do not always agree with her perspective. They have learned, though, that it is extremely difficult to change their mother’s opinions and thus resort to action rather than speech to prove their own points. Given this connection between Adjoa’s family and my own, it appears that generational divides are a universal phenomena.
Monday, April 28, 2008
the girl who can
i can sympathize with Kaya. i have an aunt in florida who tends to pick on certain things about me which consequently makes me feel like shit. i hardly think she does it with intention and i know she wants only the best for me, but when it comes to things that emphasize the things you dont like about yourself. in the beginning Kaya never knows what to say in response to her Nana. she doesnt know whether to laugh it off or keep quiet. i use to debate the same thing, however it is very hard for me to suppress my feelings or not vocalize them.
it really bothers me that the mother doesn't work harder to stand up for Kaya. i love love love the ending. Kaya no longer has to laugh off the insults about her thin legs. its like she scored a metaphorical win against her grandmother, like the ultimate way to shut her up. its just sad that she had prove herself in a way by winning the race. i feel that Nana should express unconditional love towards her granddaughter rather than making her feel that she needs improvements.
anyways, great message.
tatiana.
home.
he says, "you know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? all of a sudden, even though you have some place where you put your shit, the idea of home is gone."
its a scary feeling. i never felt this until i left home for school. i would go home for breaks and have this overwhelming feeling that i was just a visitor in my own home. home was no longer my zone of comfort. i felt out of my element.
my mom tells me stories of when she came to the US with her family. when she left the DR she remembers thinking she was being punished. it pained her to leave her country, her home. the culture was so different. everything was foreign to her. this was forty years ago and she has made this her home now.
this summer we are celebrating my birthday in the DR. she hasnt verbally confirmed what im thinking but i know it will be hard for her to go back there. its where she comes from. its her culture, but she is just a visitor. it no longer holds the value it did when it was all she knew. the idea of home is gone.
tatiana.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Only recently have I fully come to terms with the fact that my parents are indeed fallible. Growing up, I learned to accept their opinions and demands as the final say. Contradicting their orders usually resulted in some sort of punishment, or the realization that I probably should have listened. However, as I have grown older and separated myself from home for a significant amount of time, it has become clear to me that my parents are human, and that they continue to learn everyday. I guess when one becomes a parent there is no innate knowledge that tells you how to raise your children. You simply do the best that you can.
It is slightly embarrassing to admit, but I have to confess that my sometimes old-fashioned and blue-collar parents did not foresee my enrollment in college. They had no “college fund,” or notion that I would pursue an education beyond high school. Both are of a generation for which college was a luxury, but not exactly a necessity. As my mom framed it to me, “girls did three things: worked as a secretary, a teacher, or a nurse.” It wasn’t until I began doing really well in high school and they began speaking with other parents and my teachers that they realized I should continue on to college. Even then, they surmised that I would pursue a career-oriented major, such as Business or Engineering.
I can’t begin to describe how unsupportive they were when I initially told them that I wanted to be an English major. In fact, I spent a year in the Communication Studies program because I thought it would be a kind of compromise between Business and English. But like Adjoa, in Aidoo’s The Girl Who Can, I have begun to surprise my parents. Opportunities for students, for English majors, and for women are everyday expanding. Last year, when I told my parents that I would be traveling to
I cannot say that they have changed completely. My parents are much like Adjoa’s grandmother who is excessively proud and supportive, but that cries and mutters over her debunked notions. My parents too are excessively proud and supportive, but still have such limited foresight that it is impossible for them to imagine how far I might go. They still wish I had gone to school to be an Engineer, and both have their own “ideas” about what I should do after college. But, like Adjoa, I have my own ideas, and I too have realized that it’s much better to “act it out to show them.”
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Gugu Ndlovu’s The Barrel of a Pen
Speaking from my own perspective as a young woman, I have to say that this story disturbed and saddened me deeply when I read it. I am pro-choice myself, but I have always felt that women should only turn to abortion as a last resort, or if they strongly believe that an abortion would be best choice for their situation. Yes, I believe in a woman’s right to choose, but I can’t but criticize or look down upon women (in this country) who have had three or four abortions. That’s just irresponsibility on the woman’s part. It’s not women in the U.S. lack access to sex education or contraceptives. Abortion isn’t a contraceptive, it’s a last resort. Especially in a country as affluent and educated as the United States, the vital need for abortion is much lower compared to other countries where the education and information just isn’t there (as in the case of Zimbabwe). It’s a little different if a woman in the U.S. gets pregnant by mistake because they have more education (and better access to getting a legal abortion than women in some countries do), but if a woman in Zimbabwe gets pregnant mistakenly, the blame cannot fall entirely on her because there is such a lack of education and information on the subject of reproduction. Nevertheless, I believe abortion cases in the U.S. must be examined separately from abortion cases in developing nations because there is such a stark contrast between the circumstances of the two areas. Thus, the high demand for terminating unwanted pregnancies in developing nations cannot be frowned upon so much because women are not exposed to sex education as much as they are in more affluent nations. Furthermore, this is one of the reasons why I feel that women in these African nations have just as much right to having a safe and legal abortion performed as women in the U.S. do. Yes, abortion is still a highly debated today, even in this country, but if restricting abortions causes double the deaths that abortion would, is it really worth it?
Moreover, this story spoke to me primarily because I am a woman. For this reason I felt I could relate to Rachael’s character. The predicament Rachael found herself in is one that any women could face under certain circumstances. I put myself in Rachael’s shoes when reading the story. I imagined being in her position - being pregnant, not wanting to be pregnant, and having no other way to terminate the preganancy other than having a black market abortion performed. Being put in that situation, I’m really not sure what I would do. Maybe I’m being a little culturally biased here, but for argumentative purposes I am going to go ahead and assume that the girls in the story came from a much less privileged background than many of us have experienced in the U.S. Basically, your choices would be limited to having the baby and starving/living in poverty because there is one more mouth to feed, or risking your life to have an illegal abortion because you cannot get a legal one/you cannot afford a legal one. That’s a really tough choice to make. You’re basically stuck having to choose what you assume to be the lesser of two evils. I’m really not sure what I would have done if I had been in Rachael’s situation, but what I am sure of is that I have definitely grown more aware/appreciative of the country we live in and of the education and choices we have here that many other nations do not have the privilege of experiencing.
Home is not a Place, it's a State of Mind
As far as my consciousness of home goes back, I would pretty much have to say that Massachusetts is as far as it goes. I’m a fourth generation Italian-Lithuanian-Polish-American and none of my relatives (or my immediate family) has kept in touch with any of the family we may have back in the “old country.” My ancestors from Italy/Lithuanian/Poland all immigrated to the northeast, and a majority of them ended up residing in Massachusetts. Both sets of my grandparents lived in Massachusetts, and both of my parents have lived in Massachusetts their entire lives. However, I would have to say that I can’t help but feeling some sort of strong connection with at least some of my ancestral heritage. For some reason, I’ve always felt a close connection with my Lithuanian heritage. It may have something to do with the fact that I was always closer with my mother’s side of the family (the Lithuanian/Polish side). Easter was always a big holiday. We always did the egg painting thing. (Lithuania is very similar to Russia culturally and Easter egg painting is kind of a big thing in many eastern European/Slavic/Baltic nations). My grandmother would make Lithuanian or Polish food every once in a while, and I also learned a few Lithuanian/Russian words here and there. Thus, I was never exposed to pure Lithuanian culture, but I did get a taste of it from visiting my grandmother (who was a second generation Lithuanian-American). I think this may be similar to how some African Americans feel about their ethnic heritage. Although they may not have a clear-cut understanding of their heritage, they still may harbor some feelings of connection with their ethnic heritage because they are aware that they are a descendent of that particular ethnicity.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Lilia Momple's "Stress"
Although I disliked the major-general's lover, I did understand one aspect of her; how she has the uncontrollable desire for the man in the balcony. It is something she has no control of. She desires a man for reasons unknown, and I can relate to that because I often find myself attracted to certain women for no reasons. Well there are sometimes reasons, but they do not matter because it is an inner feeling that cannot be swept away, even if other interests catch the eye. But beyond that minor similarity, I cannot sympathize with her character because she is a selfish and sad creature.
As far as the teacher character goes, I sympathize with what happened. Before the murder, I saw him as a character of good qualities. Sure he sits around and drinks all Sunday, but who wouldnt want to do that? He is a good person underneath, wanting to be a teacher and help people. He cant help that he cannot afford to feed and clothe his children. Maybe it is something he should have worked to do, but all the same, I thought of him as a good moral character.
HOME
Home can also have changing definitions. For example, when you're younger it consists of your house and town but later on it can evolve into college, your apartment or even your first house. I feel that the idea of home can change through your life but you alway carry a part of your first "home" with you. In a sense our beginnings do play a role in forging our identities and this is inescapable. This partially relates to the idea of one's roots and how in modern African culture Afro-centrism still plays a role but there are also modern aspects that constitute African or African American identity.
Home Is Where You Make It
Then high school rolled around and my parents started to entertain the idea of moving to Maine. Initially I resisted the idea very forcefully. After some persuasion on their part I gave in and played along, hoping that things would turn out right. Push came to shove only to find out that they didn't. For the first 2 years after the move our family life was in complete shambles. My parents felt at home, but I didn't. It was a terrible experience but a learning one.
I soon learned that I had two options. I could let things stay as they were, or I could finally set up shop in a new town. The moment I began considering my new home as "home" things began to improve. After a period of time I felt like I had done a complete 180. A place I hated soon became a home to me. I found that ultimately I didn't lose a home, I gained a new one.
Home to Me
Home, more specifically, is a safe place for me. Although my family and I, like any, have arguments it is a place in which I am completely free to argue and express my opinion whatever it may be. I can be myself totally and completely without fearing any rejection. I have three siblings and those bonds represent home.
More recently, however, I have made another home for myself here at Stonehill. The significance of this home is completely different from that of my family home. I came here knowing no one and had to forge new relationships and become a person separate from my parents. This new home, represents a new part of me and my life, independent, for the most part, of my life at home.
I bring a part of my family home to my new home and I anticipate that in the future both of these will affect the home I make for my own family. All in all, I suppose home is the sum of all experiences and relationships that are meaningful and influence who I am now.
Home to me...
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
What's in a home?
However, home can change, and one that has grown on me that last few years is Stonehill. I’ve developed close relationships with several people here and this is a place where I feel very comfortable. I think that a home for someone isn’t necessarily a place where he or she was born and grew up, but it can be several places; it can be something in the past or something in the present. This past fall, I studied abroad in England. At first, it was all quite foreign to me, but over time I found that same comfort that I find at Stonehill and southern Maine. I think that whatever effort you put in to adjusting to a new home is what you’ll get out of it.
Home?
On a broader note when I was in Italy I felt a strange sense of belonging. It was strange to look around at the people and think this was where all of my ancestors came from. I like to stay connected to my Italian heritage. I took two whole years of the Italian language in hopes of being closer to my heritage.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Sweet Home Massachusetts
Also, it is not just my hometown that is my home, but Massachusetts. Sure, some cities or towns may be unknown to me or I may not know anyone there, but I still feel comfortable there, because it's Massachusetts, and I feel at home. I feel a connection to my state. I'm a Masshole and proud of it.
Lastly, there comes the question of whether I feel a connection to another country. The answer is simple; no. I feel no need to go to where my ancestors came from. Yes I would like to go to Ireland and Italy, but not to see my "roots", but to see a beautiful country. I think that sometimes people get caught up in finding their roots and where they came from, but to me it's not a big deal. Why chase something that has nothing to do with you?
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Home
Thursday, April 17, 2008
History and Myth
One of the major downfalls of mythical history is that it is usually maintained in the oral tradition and this has the effect of distorting facts. Myths tend to be more vague and general than "traditional" written history (keeping in mind that written history is not always the whole truth either).
Myths should never be equated to facts. Myths are helpful in some contexts but it must be remembered that they are generalizations. As a people it is our responsibility to keep our factual history as close to the truth as possible.
Myths
Myths
Myths in America
Key figures in American history were turned into myths. It is undeniable that they existed but all of their imperfections were either not mentioned or glossed over leading to their myth-like identities. This thorougly makes them unrelatable to the masses. One could even argue that the idea of life, liberty and pursuit of happiness is a myth or it is at least highly idealistic and not applicable to every American. Of course there are the obvious American legends or myths such as Johnny Appleseed or Paul Bunyan. A common theme in America's identity involves taking real people and exaggerating their accomplishments in order to tie in with a more nationalistic agenda. A great deal of American history is very myth-like; the reality of history and how it is written is very different. Religion is closely connected with our nation's history. It was made clear from the beginning that America would be a God-fearing country. Naturally this has led to numerous contradictions and a difficulty in defining religion's role in government.
It is perhaps helpful to describe myths as facts when it comes to boosting the morale of a country. In most cases it is harmful to describe myths as facts because it leads to future generations not being adequately prepared to deal with rising issues and dilemmas.
Myths and Identity Formation
tatiana.
Fact vs. Fiction
In addition, the portrayals of many historical figures or events in American history have been mythicized by mainstream American culture and by commercial industries. George Washington, the founding fathers, Christopher Columbus – all have become mythic characters in American culture. The commercial industry is especially to blame for the mythicization of many historical events such as Thanksgiving and the discovery of America by Columbus. These stories have become so weighted down with embellishment, outlandish lies, and downright poppycock that the truth has been all but bleached from the American consciousness. Disney is a specific example of a commercial industry notorious for churning out mythical portrayals of life. The Disney film Pocahontas is a supreme example of a historical event that has been cleansed of almost all truthfulness and accuracy, but is taken at face value by many members of the American public, especially children, so that the myth almost becomes truthful. Thus, since we see more and more Americans today recalling their nation’s history from television, films, and other modes of pop-culture, people are more apt to have a mythic notion of their American heritage or national identity.
Of course, it always helpful to discern facts from fiction when learning about a person or event in an academic setting. By educating one’s self about the truthfulness of a certain event or commonly held notion about a historical figure, one can form a more informed opinion about the subject. For example, by researching the founding of our nation thoroughly, one will learn that the founding fathers were not as great as middle school textbooks and Fourth of July celebrations make them out to be. Rather, upon further investigation, one will reach the conclusion that the founding fathers were a group of racist, gender-biased, white men who had their own self-interests in mind more than those of the common people when they decided to launch their “revolution” against the British. The only time that I can see it being harmful to debunk myths as works of fiction is when dealing with children. For them, every story, every myth is real and quite frankly, magical. It’s wrong to rob a child of the imagination they nurture when they read/listen to stories. Frankly, myths are essential to the creation of an imaginative, creative character. A good imagination will likely yield an openness to culture and new ideas later in life, which is why it is so important to form a healthy one early on.
Myths
Myths are important to growing up and learning because they chronicle personal experiences and viewpoints giving insight to the context and culture of the time.
From infancy to adulthood, myth is an integral part of ones identity formation. No matter how “objective” we would like to regard ourselves, it is impossible to separate from the various myths that shape our personalities. Imagine how different life would have been without ever truly having believed in Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny. Despite the fact that our parents outright lied to us for a number of years, they merely participated in a tradition that I, for one, plan to continue when I become a parent. I do not think that I have been “brainwashed” or tampered with as a result of participating in such a fairytale and, at that age, I do not think it was unusual to believe in such things anyways.
What is important about such myths is that they are eventually debunked in a fairly graceful manner. It is not traumatizing to discover that Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny is not real. In fact, it simply makes sense, and by this time we are ready to comprehend the historical basis behind the tradition of the mythologized figure. Similarly, we are not traumatized when we learn that Columbus Day celebrates a man that not only “discovered
I think that the truly damaging myths that must be dealt with are the ones that are not debunked. Consider, for example, the “Cinderella” myth among girls and young women regarding relationships and marriage. The theory was first described Psychologist Collette Dowling in her book The Cinderella Complex: Women's Hidden Fear of Independence. It is a complex that is rooted in youth, but that becomes apparent only as one grows older. Collette holds that “women are brought up to depend on a man and to feel naked and frightened without one. We have been taught to believe that as females we cannot stand alone, that we are too fragile, too delicate, too needful of protection. So that now, in these days enlightened days, when so much has become possible, unresolved issues often hold us back.”[1] In other words, the instillation of “fairytale beliefs” in life, such as that marrying the perfect man who will care for us emotionally and financially or that being pretty and feminine naturally leads to “goodness,” hinder women from pursuing a career or living singly. Cinderella syndrome also causes romanticizing of marital life and when women are divorced, single, or widowed it can lead to a destructive and false sense of failure.
Therefore to conclude, it is important to be aware of the role influence of myth on our identity formation. Though in youth it is considered normal to actively participate in such myth, by adulthood the participation in these fairytales is by and large considered unhealthy. As one grows older it is necessary to learn the role that these myths play in our lives and to distinguish fiction from fact.
[1] Dowling, Collette. "The Cinderella Syndrome." The New York Times. 22 Mar. 1981. New York Times. 17 Apr. 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Myths and America
A prevalent myth in America today is that of religion and role that God plays in society. While the extent to which God is a myth or not depends on the person, the majority of Americans believe in God, and yet the reality of such a God remains and will probably remain to be proven. Regardless of this question, I think it’s the belief in such a God that can help create order in society. While I am personally agnostic toward the question of God’s existence, my Catholic upbringing has contributed to my character and many of my positive qualities. It’s when people claim such beliefs as unquestionable fact that harmful effects can result. Sometimes it’s better to let myths be myths and facts be facts. Yet sometimes facts shouldn’t be called facts when there’s no proof, such as the whole “weapons of mass destruction” fiasco in Iraq which led to a costly war.
Monday, April 14, 2008
myth making
The origin making practices of a country are similar to those of religions. Much of what people believe is not “fact” in the sense of “able to be proven”. Rather, the religions rest on a set of assumptions that are often communicated through narrative, and, consequently, myth. Like the stories of nation formation, religions create stories based around certain perspectives that communicate a purpose and unity among it people.
I think it is always dangerous to describe myth as fact. To label something a fact creates a protective barrier around that idea. People are less willing to challenge it and are more content to support it, reference it and defend it. With events so convoluted as those constituting the origins of countries or religions it is useful to keep in mind that history does not move in a straight, uncomplicated line. Most often stories of origin or identity are the condensed, censored version of many years of conflict and struggle. To glorify something as ‘fact’ then simply means that a large number of people in power want to suggest that a certain idea is true.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Did we create a modern myth?
Truth be told, people would rather hear myths. They dont want to hear that the founders of our country are liars and took this land from others. It's too real and discouraging. Sometimes it helps to believe in myths; they help you fight through bad times, to believe that something that beautiful is out there. The myths become our savior. But sometimes it can cloud people's judgment and people can lose sight of what's real and what is just a dream.
The American Dream is a myth. A modern myth. White picket fence, family of four, peace and happiness and togetherness, blah blah blah...it's all garbage. The fantasy may exist for some, on the outside, but deep down, no family is like that. There's fighting and arguments and problems. But we like to believe that anything is possible and that the heart conquers any obstacle. I don't mean to sound pessimistic, because true happiness is out there, but perfection does not exist.
The American Dream does not exist. It's a lie. A beautiful lie.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Myths
Dreams Deferred
I think it all depends when it comes to dreams. Sometimes I'll have very vivid dreams that almost seem real and when I wake up I have to remind myself that I was only dreaming. I think people dream every night but you just can't always remember your dreams. I have gone for long periods of time without really remembering my dreams or sometimes I'll just remember bits and pieces of them. I think past dreams can be triggered by events in our everyday lives. Sometimes I'll completely forget about a dream and then something will happen that will make me remember it. Perhaps the lapses in dream rememberance result from issues and events that are happening around us; maybe we remember the dreams that we feel are helpful or important and simply disregard the ones that we don't think are important. Dreams can have so many different meanings to them and I dont think we have come close to fully understanding them.
Dreams
Farming of Bones
My dreams work in a similar fashion. In times when I'm stressed I find that my dreams are more vivid and powerful. When i am feeling more carefree I don't have as vibrant dreams and most often can not even remember them.
Dreams
On the other hand, if one was to take a more literary-based approach to this reading, one may conclude that the author intentionally had Amabelle’s dream cease to indicate her journey home. Amabelle considers herself a displaced person in various parts of the book. She mentions that she does not have papers stating whether she belongs in Haiti or in DR. Therefore, Amabelle’s dreams may have persisted for so long because she was always longing to return to her homeland while living abroad in DR. When she is finally given the chance to escape back to Haiti, her dreams may have stopped because she knew she would be returning home soon, and would no longer have to long for home in her dreams.
As far as my own dreams go, they vary from night to night. Most of the time I cannot remember my dreams at all unless I have a very interesting or unusual one. Other times my dreams are so vivid that I wake up feeling so emotionally involved in the dream that it is as if the events that took place in my dreams actually occurred. When I don’t remember my dreams for an extended period of time, its usually due to the fact that I am extremely overtired, or because I am in a generally good place in my life where nothing stressful or overly exciting is plaguing my thoughts.
Dreams
Dream Narrative
A bit of biology on dreams
For me, and for most people I think, my dreams tend to be quite vivid on some nights, cloudy on others, and I can go days or weeks without remembering my dreams at all. Sometimes they are so lucid that I have to stop and think about small details in my life – did that really happen or was that just part of a dream?
Most people have probably wondered what causes a dream. What are the biological/neurological correlates to dreaming? Many people know that there is a strong correlation between dreaming and a certain physiological state accompanied by rapid eye movement (REM) and intensified brain activation. However, research has found that there is a dissociation between REM sleep and dreaming: patients with brain damage affecting the part of the brain responsible for REM sleep still experience dreams while patients with brain damage that affects the phenomenon of dreaming still exhibit REM sleep. Research has shown that the part of the brain responsible for REM sleep is located in the brain stem and is known as the pons. Further, higher parts of the brain (i.e., parts of the frontal lobe of the cerebral cortex) have been shown to be responsible for dreaming. These areas of the brain are part of a neurochemical pathway that receive the neurotransmitter ‘dopamine’ from a lower part of the brain. What is the purpose of this pathway? Well, one researcher states that its function is “to motivate the subject to seek out and engage with external objects which can satisfy its inner biological needs.” Sounds a bit Freudian, wouldn’t you say?
I like to think of dreams as solely created by the brain with no outside input. During sleep, the normal pathways providing input from the outside world to the brain are cut off. This gives the brain a chance to recharge and perhaps, with increase brain activation at times, conjure up elaborate, ridiculous, and amusing stories.
Reference:
http://www.psychoanalysis.org.uk/solms4.htm
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Dreaming
In my own life I tend to have the most vivid dreams when something important is going on around me. When I spend my days focused on one major thing, like a big exam, or if I am stressed about something I tend to dream about the event. Often times when I go to bed thinking about something important I visualize it in my dreams and I can usually recall them perfectly the next day. It is rare that I remember my dreams and I am not sure why that is so. I would hope that I dream every night and that I just can't remember them when I wake up but I guess no one really knows. I find that when I do remember my dreams it is because they were very bizarre and something in them really caught my attention. I guess no one really knows why we dream or what dreams actually mean, but it's always fun to try and guess what they are suppose to signify.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Dreamin'
My own dreams vary in vividness. If a problem has been weighing on my mind it tends to play out in my dreams, or if scenes from a movie or a book are fixed in my mind they will figure in my dreams. I tend to remember my dreams best when they follow some form of narrative. I don’t often go a night without remembering part of a dream, however, when I do it is usually because my sleep cycle is off and either I couldn’t get to sleep or I woke up much later or earlier than usual. Consequently, I don’t remember what happened during the REM part of my sleep. I tend to think of my own dreams in practical terms rather than as divinely inspired messages or hints from Fate. While my dreams aren’t entirely coherent they always relate to something going on in my life.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Dreams, or Lack Thereof
In the Farming of Bones, Amabelle experiences several sets of dreams, including a vivid recollection of her parents’ death by drowning, a somewhat sexual dream of her fiancĂ© Sebastien, and later in the novel, a dream of crossing the border to give her testimonial of the Haitian massacre. The dreams that haunt Amabelle occur during rather uneasy periods in her life, and seem to signify her approach towards personal ‘crossroads.’ For example, it is after Amabelle learns the identity of the murdered cane-farmer that she dreams of her childhood, and it is after the death of Senora
In my own life, I find that my most vivid dreams occur when I am undergoing a significant amount of stress. For example, prior to my flight to England last fall (and I only recall this because it was written in a journal which I was perusing through last weekend) I dreamt that en route to the airport I somehow let my passport fly out of the car window, and the remainder of the reverie entailed my dream-like self dodging Saturday morning Mass Pike traffic as I attempted to recover the one item that I truly needed to leave the country. Or often I will have vivid dreams that seem to fuse different facets of my life: friends from
Dreams are definitely a way that my body deals with stress. During the summer or during any very relaxing time, I rarely recall the contents of a dream. Similarly, I think that Amabelle’s dreams are a projection of her fears and concerns as well as a subconscious method of releasing her internalized stress. However, unlike my dreams, which cease when life is stress-free, Amabelle’s dreams stop when life is most traumatic. As she and Yves escape the
I Had A Dream...but I forgot it
As a sidenote, one could argue that the dreams stop because the author wants to speed up the narrative and get the reader's focus on what is happening presently in the novel. For me, the dreams slowed the progress of the story, so this is one way that I took it.
Now, on to my own dreams. I often remember my dreams, and usually if they are interesting or significant (funny), then I will write them down. I guess you could say I keep a dream journal. I also did a study of dreams in my psychology class in high school, where I recorded my dreams every night to see if I could remember them. From this I conclude that consciousness has a major influence on remembering dreams; I try to remember my dreams so it makes it easier.
Usually I remember my dreams, or at least traces of them, when i sleep for a shorter amount of time. Every Wednesday & Friday, I get up early for my 8am class, but go right back to bed when i get out (9am). I sleep for 1-2 hours, and I always have dreams, and lots of them, very vivid. And just this weekend I had very short sleep periods and had lots of dreams, so this leads me to believe that shorter periods of sleep cause easier remembrance of dreams. Also, I always have trouble falling asleep, so one could say that stress causes one to remember dreams (this is opposite to Amabelle's situation, where the stress of being on the move caused her not to recall her dreams).
So...I believe that there are three major factors for dream remembrance, at least from my experience: Stress, Length of Sleep, and Consciousness.
sweet dreams are made of these
when i dream i feel like it is ultimately my thoughts coming into fruition. i feel that when i exert so much energy thinking about certain things they stick so much so that i cant even escape my thoughts when i sleep. there are times when i wake up and i feel that my dreams are so real. most of the time i can only remember clips which are usually out of sequence. sometimes i'll sporadically remember things that i couldnt remember right away. sometimes i have the most bizarre dreams. people say dreams have meaning. i'd like to believe that but who really knows.
tatiana.